What is this..?

To be honest i feel like im coming back the old times where i prove to be kind of inferior or no shall i say a less candidate for that person to like me or even give me a chance. Im getting a whole ranged of mixed feelings. But what am i suppose to do with these things? Is it of what i done? Or am i trying to talk to her at the wrong time? Or is it because i have somethings that are unexplained. Yeah i have a whole lot of explaining to do but i believe its better said in person or on the phone. I dont know what am i getting myself into thatsone of the questions i’d love to know. And especially what you are thinking about. Right now ur a complete mystery to me. I wish i could get to know you more. But its all up to you i guess